ni Vinia Vivar @Frankly Speaking | May 25, 2024
After losing her 4th baby recently, ayon kay Heart Evangelista ay natutunan na niyang tanggapin kung talagang hindi ito ibibigay ni God sa kanya.
Sa live session ni Heart sa Instagram kahapon ay natanong ang aktres kung ano ang laman ng kanyang prayers lately at aniya, ipinagdarasal na lang niya kung ano ang gusto ni God sa kanya.
“I just pray for God’s will. I used to pray a lot for certain things and in fairness naman sa Kanya, ibinibigay Niya sa akin. But I think, at a certain age, you kinda just pray for what you know, the grace to accept what God wants for you.
“Because you know, as you grow older and you go through life, not everything kinda goes to your way, not everything you like is given to you. But sometimes, it is still a blessing. Like for example, you know, I would pray for having a baby,” she said.
She recalled na nang makunan siya sa kanyang twins ay na-traumatize siya na ayaw na niyang magkaroon ng anak.
“Before, I remember, I lost my twins and I was very traumatized by that and I didn’t want a baby. In fact, I was very afraid to have a baby. Inisip ko, maybe hindi ibinigay sa akin 'coz I’m not a good mom, I’m not gonna be a good mom.
“So, parang takot ako (with) the idea, I get hives with the idea,” aniya.
“And then, there was a time that I was ready to have a baby, and then, hindi naman ibinigay sa akin,” she added.
Kaya ngayon daw ay ipauubaya na lang niya kay Lord kung ano ang gusto Nito para sa kanya.
“Now, parang instead of complaining or instead of you know, praying more and more na ibigay, of course I do (want), but I pray for what God wants and I pray for the grace to accept that.
“So, para peaceful lang ang life. Kung hindi ibinigay sa ‘yo, you be happy about it,” aniya.
“And you know, I’m really blessed, you know, I really have good people around me, I have a good life, my husband is healthy, I’m healthy. So, wala na tayong hihingin pa. Kung ano na lang ang ibigay,” she said.
Pero siyempre, aminado naman siyang ikinawasak ng puso niya at iniyakan niya nang sobra ang nangyari.
“Wasak kung wasak. Iyak kung iyak. Pero ‘yun tayo, eh, you can’t have it all. So I’m not gonna be bitter. I’m just gonna be happy with what’s in front of me,” deklara ni Heart.
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